Posted by Toni Hebel, August 16
On a Sunday morning not long ago, I went to church with a heavy heart. I was burdened; I wrestled with “what ifs,” and I was fearful. There were circumstances in my life I was facing that were weighing me down. On that Sunday, we were led in worship with the song “Here It Is. (I Worship You)”. The lyrics go like this:
Lord, I long to bring an offering But I don't know where to start All I have is on the table I won't hold back a single part Sometimes I cannot find the language Sometimes I'm at a loss for words I just want to give You something To let You know that You're still first
I, I worship You Lord, I, I worship You You're the one I love You're the one I choose Yes, I, I worship You
Life is full of many seasons I've felt the shadow and the sun But through the feast and through the famine This is my song in every one If all You ever wanted was my heart Here it is, here it is I lay it all on the altar Lord, every part If all You ever wanted was my heart Here it is, here it is I lay it all on the altar
As I sang this song, Jesus spoke to my heart, and immediately conviction came over me. Our conversation went something like this:
“Toni, you are ‘offering me your heart, laying it all on the altar,’ but there is a part of your heart that is lacking. Your heart lacks faith, and do you know that when you lack faith—faith in Me, do you know what you are saying? You are declaring I am not faithful. Your unbelief in Me is an attack on My character.”
I was undone.
The song continued, and as I yielded my fear and worry —my unbelief—more revelation flooded into my heart. I realized that I am attacking His sovereignty when I question God’s timing. When I wonder about His goodness, I say He is not good. When I fear the future, I believe He will not be there in my future.
Basically every drop of unbelief I allow into my heart is an attack on the character of God.
Conviction, unlike condemnation, brings a lift to one’s spirit. When I repented of my unbelief and, more importantly, what it was saying about the character of God, my spirit soured. I could continue singing this song with great faith, yielding my heart fully. It didn’t take long for my heart to go from death to life, just minutes, because that is what happens when we repent.
God honors a repentant heart.
It is a gift from Him, and now, more than ever, I desire to honor Him with my believing heart.
He is the One I choose.
“Lord, I believe. Help my unbelief.”
Toni Hebel is a gifted communicator and teacher of spiritual truths. Her passion is contagious to all around her as they gather close to hear her latest “God Story.” She is quick to say she lives to see and hear God. Toni has served alongside her husband in ministry for over 40 years. They now lead and champion Forgiving Forward, a ministry founded out of their own suffering. She is passionate about helping all women find freedom through forgiveness while restoring their God-given destinies through an intimate relationship with Jesus. Toni has been a guest speaker for various national and international ladies' events, retreats, and podcasts. Together with her husband Bruce, they have authored the book Forgiving Forward: Unleashing the Forgiveness Revolution. Bruce and Toni have been married since 1979 and have been blessed with three adult children and are the proud grandparents of six grandchildren.